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Just wanted to thank everyone who sent me birthday wishes yesterday. I appreciated it. I'm a year older and hopefully a year wiser. I've been doing better in the last few weeks. I've been getting out more and meeting new people. Just trying to maintain that momentum and stay positive. Hope everyone else is doing well and have a great weekend.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who offered their condolences, hugs and messages. I am truly touched by all of the outpouring of support from everyone in this very difficult time for me. The healing process continues but i am thankful for all the great people here who took the time to send a message. Take care

This isn't easy for me to do so here goes. I got a call from my brother yesterday informing me that my sister had passed away. Needless to say this was shock to everyone. She was only 44 years old. We won't the official cause of death until the autopsy results come in about 6-8 weeks. I'm still trying to make sense of all of this. After losing my mom four years ago, now we have this to go through. This will be hard but i will manage to make it through this. Take care everyone.

I had a pretty busy weekend, got done just about everything i set out to do. On Friday , we had our company xmas party. its one of the few times of the year that the entire firm gets together and socialize. Naturally I was trying not to be a nervous wreck and just get through it. Overall it went off well, the food was excellent, everyone enjoyed themselves and didn't drag on for hours. Glad I did it, could've made an excuse to get out of it. But exposure to these situations is important

Saturday i went out to finish my christmas shopping so i had to deal with the traffic and the crowds. Again i avoid this at all costs but i had to go to store to take advantage of the sales.I knew what to get so i was able to get in and get out quickly before i got too stressed.

Yesterday I went to watch the NFL games at a sports bar. Just nice to change the routine for one week.

So I spent a lot of time away from home this weekend which was a good thing. Still making baby steps but its still progress. Hope everyone had a good weekend and have a great week.

 

Just an update on some things going on. First off, the weather down here has been magnificent this week. Fall has always been my favorite season. I think that has helped my well being recently.

I can't believe Thanksgiving is in two weeks. I'm not ready for that at all. Not sure what me or my family are doing.

I am continuing to read the book i purchased a few weeks ago, Painfully Shy, of which i mentioned in my last post. I'm a little more than halfway through and i continue to learn about the various methods of controlling and managing anxiety. I'm optimistic that the methods presented will help me in the future.

Again thanks to everyone who has messaged me or commented to say hi. I really appreciate it. There are a lot of genuinely good people here and look forward to continuing to get know you all. Until then, take care!

 

Been awhile since i blogged here. My weekend was pretty good. Had Friday off so I took care of some errands and what no. Still  wondering when it will cool off down here. Still cranking A/C quite a bit.  I also started reading a book i purchased from Amazon. Its called Painfully Shy, How to Overcome Social Anxiety and Reclaim Your Life (or something like that). Some of you may be familiar with it. I heard good reviews on it and is giving this a shot. I'm at a point in my SA where I need to really focus on devleloping solutions as opposed to merely talking about my problems. Granted, thats important but I need to make some progress. I've read the first section which deals with how SA is rooted and sustained throughout one's life. The next section deals with ways of handling situations where SA takes hold. I look forward to reading the rest of this and will keep you all updated on my progress. Until then, take care.

Opinions, Opinions ...

by R.N.

As I couldn't sleep again last night
My mind awoke in a terrible fright
It cried "opinions, opinions", they're everywhere
Flying at me constantly without a care

I hear them in the checkout lines
I hear from the opposite table when I dine
I hear them on the evening news
I even saw them on page four under "movie reviews"

I've heard a million of them in classrooms
Now they're even on the internet chat rooms
They're always buzzing around me when I try to work
I'm even afraid they'll pounce on me around the corner where they wickedly
lurk

With all these opinions circling me
Can't you understand why it's so difficult for me?
After pondering for a minute, I calmly replied
Have you ever looked for the opinions deep inside?

Confidence, calmness, peace, and strength
They're just waiting to be your best friends
Stop looking outward to tricksters who lie
And you'll wave your social anxiety a fond goodbye

My weekend seem way too short. Its monday already?

Anyway i went grocery shopping friday. relaxed at home for most of saturday and paid some bills (of which i have too many). Sunday I went to a sports bar to watch the games. Was suppposed to meet some friends there but when i arrived i did not see them. I went looking around for their table and didn't recognize anyone.At this point my anxiety kicks in and i feel everyone is staring at me. So I immediately stepped outside towards the front. My friends showed up a few minutes later and we back inside. Pretty good time. Just hate going to places i've never been alone. But it was good to get out of the house.  i guess thats it for now, have a good one!