I miss my very few friends that I used to know. I miss old times. I was depressed and miserable but at least I had a couple people that really cared about me. That at least called me once in a while. I hate SA. I look back on the past and it is completely blank. I don't have a lot of fun memories. I just wish I still had the two or three friends that I used to have so i can have memorable times at least once in a while. I've been having bad dreams at night, even, because I''m so depresssed about my friendles past. I'm 26 years old, and i'm still back at age 15, waiting for something exciting to happen. For my SA to go away at least. I"ve wasted so much of my life and I'm ready to pick up and start living but I don't know where to start. I need to move on. THis alienated, lonely, SA life is getting really old!!!!! Come on, Sun, can't we just start over?!
