For the one whom I love, for the one I hold dear
though my heart aches without you,
you have everything you ever wanted; and your happiness
soars as high as the tallest mountain.
So great is your happiness that I tearfully bless
your remaining lifetimes for you and the one your heart does caress.
So mote it be... I am dead to you. I will remain that way until the sun shines it's last ray. Now I will sleep... please stay clear of my dreams.
Erase yourself from my memory...you must do this please!!!!!!
Goodbye dark angel. I leave you now. In the end, at least one of us felt the true warmth of the light. I'm glad that it was you.
Ok, so you’re asking "What the hell is a persocom?" Well, if you watch or read the Chobits series, you’d know... but a great deal of you don’t.. so I’ll give a brief description before I start my little piece of writing...
Persocoms - Humanoid robots live and work with humans and perform all sorts of goals and jobs. They’re not sentient though, but they’re very advanced, often enough to almost fool people. But most of the time it comes down to the kind of software you get for them and the kind of training you give them. And just like computers today, they come in all shapes and sizes. Note the picture below... the ears are were all/most outlets are located.
Chobits- a highly advance persocom who can feel emotion and think from free will.
Now that all of that is out of the way (I highly recommend this series by the way), I give you my custom made persocom (well, in written description at least)...
If I had a persocom, he would be a custom made chobit. He would have the appearance of a slender 20 year old male with hazel eyes. He would have long dark hair (can’t decide brown/black yet), smooth and silky. He would wear clothes from the late 90’s... Kikwear and band tshirts would be an example.
His name, I am still uncertain but ’Gibby’ would be a notable choice considering my sentiments to my comic strip character as well as someone I used to know (and still love). He would be programmed with a self learning program and he would have outstanding orginazational skills. He would assist me with cleaning and daily chores and he would be a better auto-mechanic than any crooked human could ever imagine.
He would be caring and kind to children and a great friend to my precious son. His learning software would allow him to learn the trade of his choice and he could work if he so desired. If not, he could watch over my son while I worked. I’d never have a babysitting woe again!
He would be strong; a protector. He would have his very own room if he so desired. He would be lovable and caring and affectionate, but he would show no sexual desire. He would know only innocence. No lust or greed for anything. I would not consider him an object... he would be part of the family. He would live just like a human would.
Ok so that’s all I have so far... yeah I know some of you will say I’m talking as if a robot can replace a human... well, anything is possible in a land of fantasy now isn’t it?
So there’s a boy and a girl. The girl likes the boy a lot.. maybe even loves him. One day, the girl finds out that the boy likes her as well. So, you would think the boy and the girl would get together and live happily ever after or at least develop a few good memories in eachother’s company. Right?
But this does not happen... Instead, the girl withdraws into her fear and anxiety and insecurities... shutting the boy out everytime he tries to get close and eventually, makes the boy believe that she feels absolutly nothing for him. The girl puts up the invisible wall and shuts him out completely.
So... why does she do this? What is it that she’s so afraid of? How can she shut out the one person whom she cares for more than anything.. the person whom she cannot forget, no matter how many days, months or years go by?
The boy accepts the rejection, as he sees it, and moves on. The girl, however, cannot bring herself to move on and she spends the rest of her years mourning over her loss... the very one that SHE herself caused. What will bring the girl closure? How will she move on to the next realm without damning her own soul to search for him for an eternity?
It wasn’t supposed to be this way... she loved him back then.. she loves him now.. and she will never stop loving him.. she will take her burden with her when she leaves this life. Her soul cannot crawl out of the dark.
Such a tragic couple they are... for they never were. Poor Trevor and Lorraine...
