so i just got off the phone with the campaign office and im going in for an interview to intern.... little anxious/ nervous about the start up process, but ive done all this before so i know i can handle it. i have to admit, although i wasnt supporting him at all in january/ february, i am SUPER psyched about this campaign now.

this also means i am quitting best buy. goodbye to my new schedule of a one day 9 hr week (due to budget cuts). selling appliances isnt as fun as politics anyways....

and also my ex invited me over again....for tonight, shes going to call me later supposedly....im totally running out of excuses etc (haha i even told her that "im running out of excuses to avoid coming over")

well....now i just need to figure out what to do with my first friday night on campus.....comp lab to study like last year...? more than likely...

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so after trying the first few days to avoid it...i just ran into my ex for the first time this year. she looks like she gained weight and her skins looks gross, but i still feel awkward. made me hug her and invited meover her apartment (for the 2nd time already) even tho i know shes seeing someone. wish i could have avoided her longer.

classes have been going alright. i have a 3hr long class tonight tho...NOT excited about that. also i found out that my hours have been cut back at work. next week im only scheduled for 9 hrs.....thats down from 32... i think im just going to quit and look for something else. maybe something that is closer to my new place.

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So this morning i woke up and went to mass by myself at the church on campus. it was awkward and i felt uncomfortable. it was very different from the more formal catholic masses that i am used to. there were guitars and more interactions with the people around you. i prefer my traditional mass to be honest, but as long as i am there to worship, then i think it will be fine.

then i went to the beach by myself. i hate the beach. sad sticks to me and theres bugs and traffic and sand and....i hate the beach.

then i went to the campus gym for the first time since last semester. it wasnt crowded bc everyone else is just moving today whereas i moved in yesterday. i just ran a couple miles on the track and then did some low intensity on the bike to finish up.

my roommates (strangely) have still yet to arrive....

and later tonight i have a meeting which i am a bit nervous about. this semester i trying to get more involved in things i care about etc. plus maybe itll help make some friends.... so tonight i have to go to this girls apartment where we are having a meeting before the freshman orientation. it is for the student pro life club. so my anxiety should be pretty bad bc i have to go to this girls apartent that i dont really know, but even more bc i go to a VERY liberal campus where the students really harass the pro lifers.... but i guess it wont be as bad as it sees in my mind (it never is....)

hopefully afterwards i can find something to do. a party or some people to hang out with or something so that y new roomates dont think i am a total freak on the first day....

well.....here's to my senior year!

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so today i got to move into my college apartment a day earlier than everyone else... thats great, but now i have nothing to do all night. there isnt really anyone here (not that i really have friends anyways......) and no tv or anything to do......so i am bored and completely unpacked.

any ideas to kill the rest of the night?

feel free to im on aim (mmoroney50) or on msn (mcubed1987@hotmail.com)!!!!

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i feel like nobody there likes me. it's so hard relating to people socially. the only conversation i can carry with people is politics and most people keep that to themselves at work. i hate seeing the groups of people standing around talking and laughing and knowing i  cant have that.....

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Just got a haircut today. Usually this is one of my big SA problem situations.... anyone else hate doing this??

I dont really know if i like how it came out. I guess it might be one of those take a few days to let myself grow into it. They were kind of rude though bc i guess both girls working there were about to end their shifts like 20 mins after i came in. She totally rushed through my haircut. Also she kept getting in too close to me and her inner thigh was pressed up against my hand....awkwardness.  Tried to keep moving it away, but that didnt work out well....

Overall, i dont think i will be getting another haircut from that place...

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well i had a buncha goals i set back in may b4 i got out of school for the summer....

I did eventually find a job. WAsnt really the job i was going for, but I think it might be what God had intended for me to do to help myself. It's a job that confronts my SA head on. Often times it gets tough, but I thank God for the opportunity.

I joined a pretty good gym and was pretty satisfied with the facility and the cost. The membership expires on the sme day that i am moving into my apartment.

I did fail pretty badly at making new friends. In fact, I actually lost some...but oh well.

Finished reading 3 new books. They were all really great ones too. Gutcheck by Tarek Saab, Shorter Summa by Thomas Aquinas, and Ronald Reagan : how an Ordinary man became an Extrordinary Leader by Dinesh D'Souza.

But... the one I had hoped for most didnt happen. ---Still very single. Had a little soething going for awhile in May, but she was very flaky and not serious about me. The last REAL solid relationship I was in ended in Juned 2007. We had dated for about 3 1/2 yrs. Things werent great between us, but I hope to get back to that state of having someone that loves me. I miss that...

School starts up in less than 2 weeks

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this morning on my way home from the gym my anxiety went up kinda high b/c of someone getting angry and being rude in traffic towards me. (wont describe b/c i'm still unsure wth was the problem....)  i'm trying to get over it asap b/c i dont wanna ruin the rest of the day (especially b/c i have to work tonight and stress/ anxiety makes it a lot harder)

So.... i figured i'd write it down here to see if it helped me out at all...

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just kind of writing down some of my thoughts in this blog tonight....

It's been awhile since my last girlfriend. I feel so lonely and want to find someone. I've had very few girlfriends. I really dont have any friends or anything either. I often end up developing crushes on girls but always (because of s/a) fail to make any kind of move on the girl. right now there's this girl at work i kind of like, but i know it's going to end up being like all the other times when i just end up avoiding her and eventually she wont be availabe anymore. My s/a isnt so bad once i've started dating someone, but getting something started is so hard. I really wish there was an easier way to dating.

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