Well, where shall i start, im at uni and only have a few friends, but they are good friends, the rest of the people i live with and stuff i tend to avoid. becsause i have got help i dont really get annxious any more, but i think its kind of habbit with me that i dont speak much. Any way ive been dating this guy for nearly three months and he knows im quiet and stuff but i haven't told him about my SA.i am so worried that when i do tell him, he will tihnk i " need" him or he will treat me differently.
All my flat mates come back tomorrow, i dont get on with them, not just because of SA just because i dont like them TBH. I have had the flat to myself for about 2 weeks and its been great, and now im goin to feel trapped again, ive decided im goin to try and be confident about this and not care what they think. But its easier said than done. I also will be seeing poeple of my course, i have a few people i hang aroud with but it kinda makes me nervous because i dont really know what to say to they and i feel stupid with them, but i know ive got to be around people and keep pushing myself if i want to get better. Its so hard, i thought after i had got help and when they said i wouldn't need any more thearpy it would be easy. LOL.
My life seems like a constant battle, although it s got easier and i have made a few friends i still dont feel normal.
