Well, the past couple of weeks or so I have been feeling pretty good - relatively speaking at least. My anxiety, both social and general, as well as the mild depression I had been experiencing have all pretty much been under control. My mood swings occasionally, but that's to be expected. I contribute my improvements pretty much fully to my meds (klonopin/lexapro) and my harmless addiction to working out
. Also, finally being to connect with people (on this site, duh) who understand what it's like to live with SA has been a big help.
I work from home for my best friend, so I pretty much make my own hours, but I've been trying to keep as busy as possible with work, the gym, painting, etc... Too much idle time leads me to go places in my mind I'd prefer not to go. Anyway, all in all I've made a lot of progress from around 2 months ago when I was feeling at my lowest point ever. But I am by no means where I hope one day to be.
While I have been venturing out more (going to the gym, taking an art class, etc...) I haven't made any new friends in "real" life. This is something I really yearn to be able to do as I have VERY few friends and no girl friends. I have had girl friends in the past, but my SA caused me to alienate myself from them. Anyway, that's really my main goal right now SA-wise because while guy friends are great, it is by NO means the same as having at least one close girl friend to be able to confide in, go out with, etc... But I really believe everything in life happens for a reason and things will work out for me in the end as long as I continue taking good care of myself mentally and physically.