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I am still haunted by my x g/f's memories, I am still not able to understand how people can be so hard n cruel. I loved her for eternity. I believe time will prove sometimes in the future but the pain am sufferin is wordless.

I really wish this would be the last day of my life....am that much tired, disappointed n depressed. nothin left in me........

I really dunno wot to write , wot to say.  Am startin to feel like empty inside......for the last  six month or so I am goin through the rough patches of life. I had many in the past though but for the moment I dont have a clue how I can get over with this.

I had problems with my eye since birth - short sight and night blindness.  I had lots of test done but doctors couldn't find the reason but recently when I was in london gone for a check up in Moore field eye hospital and the finding was shocking . They confirmed that my disease is somethin  called Retinitis Pigmentosa  a rare eye condition in which the tissues rod and cones are dying with time. So it will lead  me to almost blindness by the age of 40 or 50. There's no known treatment for this. The real pain is that my parents dont have a clue about it. I am confusin whether I have to tell them or not.

 I am not afraid of gettin blind but  I dont wanna hide anythin serious from my parents . It will hurt them , they r big softies. Even I really dont wanna tell all this stories here but today I cant stop myself from writin. I tried many time to open up  here but stopped n thought its a weak thing to do.  Things are gettin dark for me now. 

For me the real stranger is myself!!! But  knows he is the reason for my existence. He is the reason for my happiness and unhappiness. He is the true witness for all my action. He is the reason for my everything. Lol but me really dunno who is this, what his name , where he comes from n what he really wants. The distance between me and the self makes me mad!!!!!

 All living and non living things tends to go back to its source or origin  .  The ignorance about the source or the way to source, causes unhappiness.

 e.g. If our soul is 10% of the total unverse  then origin is 100% . So the reason for the  unhappiness is the ignorance of 90%.

Lol me gonne really mad???????

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