So I 'made it' through the first meeting on my new project team (offroad car this time). When the team leaders introduced I think I experienced my first documented case of selective mutism. I just pretended to look at the team members and there was awkward silence. I guess I was supposed to say hello or something. Oh well.

I'm not a masochist but I think I'll have to learn to be one if I am to at some point get on with these guys. They are all well-adjusted, outgoing people...hopefully by spending more time with them I can be more like them...

I already want them to hit me again...hit me with their derision and ridicule.

The first hit is always the hardest...I will take it and get through this.

End.