arnt they just? haha,

 I stopped working in January was too much in a funk to get another job so I just used my credit card(big mistake) borrowed money and used my savings, making every dollar stretch.

 So I hadnt paid my 2 credit cards in 3 months so they started to call me etc, though I got lucky cos I became eligible for a student allowance off the government and the good thing is they back paid me from February, so I got 3 months of payments all at once! was such a nice suprise to finally have money, tho I have 90 percent of it on paying my overdue amounts and paying back people i owed money. It such a nice feeling to be out of debt for a while!

My anxiety has continued to dwindle, every week I feel more confident than the week before and Im making huge changes life wise, I now realise I have a future and It is what i make it, Driving is mainly where my anxiety is these days, though its getting better.

When im in public ive become very aware that no one actually cares about you(in a good way) people rely only pay attention to you if they need to. It never been so nice to feel like a nobody

 Uni ends for the semester today, tho I have 2 major assignments due one yesterday and one today, havent started either eeeeeeek! but ill be fine, I just procrastinate until last minute , then spend 14hrs straight doin them haha, some things never change

made a few new friends and continued to get rid of others that were a bad influence, family life is WAY better, my parents dont look at me like im a freak anymore, i never thought id ever get along with them but im starting too,

Ive become a lot more organised, being organised gets rid of alot of anxiety I find, like being prevenitive is better than being reactive, my room is very orderly now i know where everything is

 my sleep is still bad, but im learning just to accept it and work around it, then gettin depressed when i cant sleep or when i sleep too much

 changed my diet a bit too, started drinking green and white tea makes you feel really good, and ive tried to get rid of junk processed food and eat more fresh food, it really does make you feel better, the thought of going to KFC right now dosent please me at all, tho having a salad does, its funny how your diet can change, i thought id live fast food forever

woah long blog haha

peace

xxx