just feeling the need to ramble a bit.  I had to take my girl to the eye doc today.  To my medicine like a good girl and still ended up rocking back and forth the entire time planning my ecspae routs and the whole nine yards, it kind of shot the rest of the evening to total shit.  Trying to quit smoking and went out and bought a pack of smokes today after almost a week without so now I have to start all over.  Promised my daugter I would work on getting back on my meds and all that good stuff so that I might occasionally be able to leave the house.

Problem is,,,,other then the fact that it bothers the family I really don't mind being the way I am.  I am perferctly contect to stay at home and not go anywhere.  I have everything I need here and my husband takes care of the stuff outside of the house so I am struggling right now with this whole medication thing because I really don't want it, but I don't want to end up doing damage to my children and all that good crap.  Anyway, enough for now.  Think I will go smoke that demon ciggeratte now and call it a night.

gypsy