hmm. I have a burning desire for life. To avenge what has been taken from me for so long. So many opportunities lost. So much beauty broken. I dont want to sleep. I dont have time for sleep. As I get better I see what I am capable of and see what I have missed. Bittersweet it is. To find and at same time realise what you have lost. I wont loose anything anymore. I will grab life and I will squeeze it. I hope the wait is over. Oooh I do hope that.