I cant really describe the beauty running through my veins in these very moments. It seems futile to even try. But I do feel reborn. Every moment. Each one. I feel new to this world. I feel my hands. I watch them. And feel them. I dont know why. Where I am there is no why. Why is obsolete. Why is meaningless. I feel the universe pulsating. I am all the galaxies and yet i am not. I am all and nothing.

My skull is giving in. I feel it reshaping. My mind is reeling. Seasickness is setting in. Travelling on a single drop of happiness. Strangely its enough to float the world. I am ready to die. I dont know why. I should summon the armies of the west. I know I should. I have something to tell, I beleive. But I have believed this so many times before. Oh so many times.  

Oh. How I wonder. Oh how I wonder where this message in a bottle will go.   

 Sorry. I have to say that word. Its not the mian theme of my blog. But still. Sorry. Sorry for not replying to all the wonderful people wishing me a happy birthday some 6 months ago. Sorry. And sorry about me closing the meditationgroup without due notice. Well. it didnt really fly did it. So im sure it wont be missed.

Happiness be with you.