today was going pretty good. i mean, strict schedule aside, it was a nice day.

went to my counselor....i'm so close to being over this sa. still got bit of work to do phone call wise, but ah, i was feeling happy, you know? 

then i came home, had dinner w/the family and all that. well, we started eating dessert(pumpkin pie ice cream, yum! lol reminded me of that starbucks pumpkin spice drink) and somehow the conversation went from classic cars to how we kids might turn out like in 10 years. yeah....

my mom and her boyfriend(should probably call him stepdad already) were having fun, saying that jerry and brian were probably gonna have the most kids, philip will have one, and i'll most likely have a girl and a boy. but then, after that was said, my bro jerry went and said, "sorry winifred(yeah, they get a kick out of callin me that lol), but i don't think you're gonna have any kids in 10 years." and then philip laughed and said "yeah, i'd be surprised if you're even married. i mean, you MIGHT get a boyfriend by then."

i just felt so down after that. i mean, the worst part is they were being more than halfway serious because i've heard some of this stuff before....idk, it's just my day was going great, and i was feeling better about everything then ahhhh....

it's kinda hard to stay positive when you hear stuff like that....and my mom and her boyfriend didn't even say anything. i know just because they said this doesn't mean it's true or anything, but still....i wonder if they even realize what their words do

ok, i need to forget about this. i think i'm gonna go blare beatles on the record player. even though i'm supposed to keep music down after 10 according to my parents' wonderful schedule. ah, who cares LOL they can just listen to "i am the walrus". :D

hope everyone's day/afternoon/night is going well.....buenos noches hehe