i have been having alot of trouble latley with my depression and sa. i don't want to leave my house and get out of bed in the morning. all i do is cry and i've become and emotional wreck. my husband doesn't understand any of this that is going on. sometimes i wish that i weren't alive. then after i think about it.. i reallize i still have alot of things left to to here so i cant go nowhere.

last night i crawlled into bed with a teddy bear and cried untill i fell asleep.  i have been having panic attacks alot this week also.  i had a bad one when a person on this site really made me afraid. then i had one when a customer tried to have a conversation with me. i have no clue what i'm going to do with my self. i just feel like shit.