I just realized a few weeks ago that I have SA... since then I've been finding out more and more about it, and all of these things that I thought were just "how I am" are now symptoms of SA.  I have never been able to have friends.  I am sooo envious of those people that can just walk into a room and make friends.  Now that I know what it is... I realize all these things.  Like, how in grade school I would always be standing outside at recess by myself, and I was completely fine with it, I preferred it to be that way.  Or how in high school, I would rather just go home and sit in my bedroom by myself then go out with friends on the weekend.  Or how in college I met so many people, and it seemed like they liked me... but I couldn't ever get any "real" friends.  And, I've always felt like if someone gives me a compliment... its because they want something from me or they feel bad for me.  Today, I am living on my own in a small apartment.  I sit at home by myself every night.  I have nobody to talk to, except if I am at work.  Otherwise, I am by myself.  I want to get out and meet people.  But, how?  And meeting guys... that will never happen.  I wish it would though... :-(   I just feel all alone in the world, like no one is there.  I have no one.  I have a lot to offer and I am a good person... but no one knows that.  I haven't told my family yet.  The worst thing for me is talking to strangers... when a complete stranger says "Hi", it freaks me out soooo much.  I don't know what to say, I have to think of something or else I will seem rude.  And if I am somewhere out in public... I act like I am not really there, and just going through the motions....  AHHH I hate having SA.  Help!