Last saturday(June 7th) my cousin called me to tell me she was on her way over my house to take me clothes shopping after she gets her new stomach ring(lol) and so kindly does my hair for free(again). But I had to tell her that I'd go next saturday(June 14th) because my mom wasn't able to loan me any money to buy my own clothes. But my cousin was even sweet enough to offer her own money to buy my clothes.

But I just couldn't accept that. Why? Because she's already done things like my hair for free and then she took me to the movies and paid for my tickets(plus, I generally feel guilty about accepting anyone's money whether they've done things for me or not). I wonder if I should have just accepted that offer....You might assume that I was greatly disappointed....On the contrary,

I was extremely relieved because I couldn't stop thinking about how much easier it would be for people to notice me in a clothing store than the movies(since its too dark to actually see anyone in good enough detail).

I just know I'm going to feel even dumber in the store than I did in the movies because I have to walk around and since I don't know my way around stores, I'll probably follow my cousin around like some baby duck(UGH). Maybe my therapist can offer me some advice(even if her sessions are but a mere 15 minutes lol).