I had a dream that I was preggers and Mike was sitting next to me rubbing my belly.  So, I just realized that maybe that's why I sleep so much...because my dreams are so much better then my reality. 

Our friends had a baby girl in March '07 and I can't tell you how envious I am.  I always wanted to be a young mother, mainly because my mom wasn't and I feel like I was robbed of some things as a child.  I always said 25 is the latest I want kiddos and here I am now, turning 26 on Sunday.  Mike wants to wait until he's done with school, which won't be until I'm in my early to mid 30's.  How ######## suckey is that??  That's exactly what I didn't want.  Granted, right now is definitely not the time and that I can understand, but, why not in 2 years?  3 years?  The funny thing is when we're at family get togethers people are always like "Wow, you've been together 7 years?  Where's the ring Mike??"  No one agrees with his plan.  They all think we should be married already.  Oh and ya know, it would be nice to be married for a year or two before we have kids but then it won't happen until I'm 35/36/37!!  Damnit, that makes me so sad.  =(

I can't help but dwell on the fact that maybe if I didn't have SA I'd have been done with college by now, started with my career and saving money for a house and a wedding....but no...I have to be ######## broken.