I just can't handle it anymore. I don't want to.

I don't want to go to my interview on Thursday. I don't want to attempt to support myself for the rest of my life. I don't want to fight with myself tomorrow. I don't want to look in another mirror. I don't want to face another day.

Why is it so difficult to kill yourself? What's the purpose of survival? I just want to be at peace. If I were strong enough to kill myself, I'd be strong enough to handle life.

I barely even bleed anymore.