New Year is coming up soon and it looks like I'll be on my own again this year :( I was alone last new year's eve for the first time, I've always been with my family before but my mum was in France, my dad was with his girlfriend and my sister was out enjoying herself like most normal people. Times like these makes me so sad that life is passing me by and makes me feel like I've missed out on so much. 

Even if someone asked me to go to a party I would still be sad because I know that I wouldn't be able to stand going, I don't know what I want really. SA sucks.