Okay, another moment for me to blog out.

So bear with me as I try to explain why I feel a bit bad a the moment. There is some part of my brain that is wired up for emetophobia... it's an irrational fear of vomit or anything related.

Now I don't suffer from all the time... but certain things will trigger it and it justs get set off. But what happens in my case is that this sudden phobia of vomit makes it extremely hard for me to eat or drink anything. If I try to eat, my throat constricts and I feel like I might vomit. Ands that's where the emetphobia kicks in and I stop eating.

So yes, something did trigger it today... So I've been like this for the past 6 hours now... I was feeling better about three hours ago and made something to eat and watch tv...

and fuck. All it it took it was a half second of something on the tube and it was set off again. I couldn't finish dinner so I've just been waiting it out since then. I'm getting a headache now from barely eating anything for a while...

What ticks me off is that I know this is all psychological and in my head but I can't really make it stop. I just have to wait it out til my brain cycles this crap out. In the meantime i have to avoid whatever slight things that could re-trigger it.

I am starting to feel better again. I can drink some soda... still can't eat at the moment.  I'll try and nibble on something a bit later.