Its 1:30 am and I'm absolutely bored out of my mind. I have nobody to talk and nothing to keep my mind occupied.

The worse part of all is that its only friday and I've got an entire weekend of this to look forward too!

I always get really bad panic attacks when I'm bored because I have nothing to occupy my thoughts and I start ruminating on my loneliness and depression.

Last week my therapist asked me what things I had done during the week "for fun". I told him nothing. I don't really do anything anymore I enjoy. In fact, I don't really enjoy anything anymore. I just do everything out of habit and necessity.

Of course, once the weekdays are over, and I don't have work to occupy the majority of my time, I've got 2 solid days of having absolutely nothing to do and I go mental.

I hate being bored, it drives me crazy! I used to spend my time programming or talking to people, but I have nobody to talk to anymore, and nothing interests me to program (besides, I do that all day at work already).

Sigh...