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Is it not one thing? Perhaps it's another

Posted On: 03/13/2008 11:45:14

Too many things on my mind lately! Maybe if I write them out it'll help.

I don't even know where I will be living in 3 months. Which makes life pretty unpredictable. I *think* I'll still be in [wherever my town is haha] but I am not sure, because...
My summer internship fell through. And now I have a very short time to find a new one.
I am not as worried about passing comps as I was before. But that still worries me too.
So does employment. I need to get ready for employment for September (yes, trust me, I do). 6 months from now, probably live in a different part of the state! Which means moving again!
Moving! I hate moving!
Starting my next quarter internship. That's on my mind.
And then just making it though the everyday, which is hard enough

I can't really afford to think past the 6-7 month mark. Hell I can't really think past the 1 or 2 day mark, or I start to hyperventilate. So when does this poo end? I wake up about every other night from nightmares and worries and can't go back to sleep. I'm fortunate to have people in my life who stick this out with me. But I'm still so, so freakin' whacked out here!

On the brighter side of life, I'm taking a very fun vacation in about 2 weeks! I don't think I've ever been looking forward to vacationing so much!

Time to wait for the Ambien to work, say a prayer, and hope for real sleep tonight. The future will do its thing. I just need to start with sleep.

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From: Hypatia

03/18/2008 10:46:37

I had a good friend once tell me that she tried to never focus on what she needed to do if it was over a week away, since she would just stress out about it all.

I then told her everything I needed to do in the next week. (Yay, grad school!) Her response? "Maybe you shouldn't focus on more than what you need to do in the next hour."

Try not to stress out about these things too much. Play your cards right, set you plans in motion. You'll be somewhere in six months, trust me. ((((((((((Chris))))))))))

Have a nice day,

Kelly :)

From: millenniumman75

03/14/2008 07:44:50 Caedmon, In spite of it all, you have a good head on your shoulders! Can you imagine how much we can accomplish if we didn't have SA spinning our wheels?

From: kkmango

03/14/2008 11:37:57 your eyes are getting very sleepy...

From: altrdperception

03/14/2008 10:13:16

Life is about the worry and the bliss and even worrying can be bliss, wait...hear me out lol In that you get to worry about things other people don't have the opportunity to accomplish. Anticipatory anxiety is the worst, yet it also gives me adrenaline and that can be a good or bad thing. Anywho, you've got a lot on your plate mr. As i read this, i am plagued with the days of school and the unpredictable, while in the same breath, missing it a lot. Good luck!