I haven't updated since my whole speech class drama. I ended up having a panic attack before one of my speeches and dropped the class. It doesn't so much matter now though. Last semester I had switched my film minor to a major and anthropology major to a minor. I went back. I'm now anthropology again. I'm going to try to get in a visual anthropology program for grad school. I've also learned a good bit about anxiety through my studies in evolutionary psychology and it sort of confirmed something that I had though about my social anxiety. I think that it's influenced greatly by the fact that I live in a very oppressive place. To be someone like me in the bible belt is really difficult. The main reason the speech class was tough was because it was filled with business majors which at the university of Alabama means, conservative often homophobic frat boys. Overall I've gotten over a lot of my social anxiety. I've been hanging out with some pretty cool people. I have gay friends that aren't "the gays". It seems like its difficult to find gay friends that aren't going through some major crisis coming out to homophobic family or who aren't trying to come to grips with their sexuality. I hold nothing against those folks but I came out at a really young age and would really just like friends that I can relate to and who aren't just going to talk about their sexuality. Personally it's only really an issue for me when someone else makes it an issue. So it's nice to have people to talk to about everyday things. I'm also getting pretty excited because I only have a year to go here. I'm very happy and also scared poo.... about that. I have a tough tough year ahead of me, my course-load from here on out is extremely intense. I need to work on my self-discipline. Because I'm going to reeally need it if I expect to pass. I'm seriously considering trying to not work. Although, I don't know yet how much financial aid i'll be getting. I really need to just take off of work, at least for next semester but financially, I may not be able to. boo. Oh, I'm also planning on joining the peace corps. I had considered americorps then peace corps so that i could actually move somewhere and have a life before i'm shipped off to some third world country. I hear it gets lonely in the peace corps. But I think I'm just going to take a few months off, study for my GRE and try to get in to an antrho grad program through the peace corps. I really need to do more research on that. Anyway, things are going well.