So after last weekend, I've decided to not contact the girl I was seeing and she hasn't contacted me. I think it's over. I'm actually not mad at her. Like I said, I can't be, she was upfront with me about everything and that's what I always want. On another note. These girls have been making eyes at me. That sounds weird. Well, I see these girls on campus and at the pub and they always look at me and smile in this flirty way. One of them, the main one introduced herself to me and a friend one night but I hadn't had enough to drink and got really shy and made an excuse to get away. Well both of them added me on facebook this week. And they've sent me messages but I've really connected to one more than the other. I like them both. Well, coincidentally a friend invited me to this meeting for a student organization on campus that she happens to be the president of. Well, umm, so today she sent me a message saying that she was having people over and invited me but I chickened out. I like her. I don't really know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I've got some bi-polar type self-esteem. To be honest a lot of girls are attracted to me and I know that. But I just can't talk to them. People always think I'm really accentric and iook interesting and what if i'm not what they thought I was. As shallow as it seems, it's easier for me to sleep with someone than actually speak to them. That's kind of backwards. I guess that's how my last thing ended up being more physical than anything. I don't really know how to just talk to people. I've gotten a little better but...ugh!