Hey all, 
Well this is my first blog entry, so I thought it may be good to use it to tell you about the kind of problems I have.
My problems started quite a long time back when I was about 12, I started having a hard time in school and it turned me into a very depressed and anxious person - I was already shy but when I began to get bullied, my shyness got worse, and I ended up having an intense fear of people my age at the time (so teenagers basically). Since then over the years I have been pushed from pillar to post in terms of medication and seeing health care professionals.
Over time and with growing older, I think my anxieties have lessened a little, but there are still many things I find extremely difficult.
The worst for me is being outside alone. It's not like Agoraphobia, and being afraid of open spaces, it's simply about the people around. I find it very hard to travel on public transport, and haven't done so properly for a while now. I feel that it's taken a lot of independence away from me, as I have to travel with a friend if I want to go out.
I also suffer from depression, it used to be very severe but has got slightly better through the years and is more manic now, than a continuous low.
My self esteem is a massive problem for me, I am constantly thinking I am very ugly and can't bear to look at myself sometimes. Others tell me I am the total opposite, and very attractive, but I guess I just think they're saying it to make me feel better.
I joined this site because I would like to connect with others who can relate to those feelings of anxiety and so on, sometimes when you're in those dark situations, it's easy to think you're the only one in the world that feels that way.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I hope it's given you a better understanding of my problems and why I'm here, and thankyou to everyone that has made me feel very welcome 
Donzie 
<3 xoxoxo.
