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Of all the most ridiculous things that has happened to me , this weekend gone this has to be the winner. I went back to Liverpool to sort out my student things and thought i should tidy my room! I lifted up my student jacket...and underneath it was a SNAKE!!! yes a yellow and orange snake to be exact! I never been so afraid in my whole entire life! I ran out of my bedroom, tripping over myself, screaming like it was about to attack me! (i would leave a picture so you have an idea but i don't want too, i can't bring myself to google snake). anyways i called my friend Farah to come up to liverpool and check if i wasn't imagining things, after all wtf was a snake doing in Liverpool student accomodation anyway...in rainy england. Farah: a snake in your room...chaz are you imagining things? ME: Please just come! Farah: You do have a vivid imagination sometimes, but ok if i must. An hour of an half later Farah arrives and we go back to my self, as soon as i stepped back into my student accomodation my legs just turned to strawberry jelly. Farah got a broom stick and went into my room and i stayed outside...it was quiet...then ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Farah ran into the kitchen screaming IT'S A SNAKE...YOU'VE GOT A SNAKE IN YOUR ROOM! Farah went outside to roll a ciggy as she reckons she can't cope, i moaned that it is in my room! I sort of giggled as she was incapable of rolling a ciggy at this point as she was shaking. We topped up our phones and called pest control but they were all crap Pest control: In 15 years i never dealt with a snake Pest control 2: Sorry call the zoo Pest control 3: Sorry we deal with rats and stuff like that Insurance company: Do you realise you've just called an insurance company RSPCA: if you have problems with a fox, press 1, if you have a problem with a hedgehog press 2, if a problem with a snake press 3....[pressed 3] a snake is a protected species which means we can't kill it, the best thing to do is leave it and it will go away... SLAM!!! i phoned my landlord but he said...oh i'm out of the area. So we rang up RSPCA main national number and the lady told us that the people might come at 11pm at night but we had to phone the police...THE POLICE??? we did POLICE: a snake...well i never had a call like this before anyways the police called some local animal rescue man, he usually rescues animals from car accidents and stuff like that. He went in my room and searched for an hour and a half. He said the snake could have gone, but it could have hidden in a dark space, to warm up or something. SO i have to go back to liverpool not knowing if the snake is still there or not...i feel sorry for the new students. anyway the snake was an american corn, small one, a starter snake for people who wants to look after snakes for the first time, but obviously the owner was crap and keeping it as it has escaped into my room... anyways we left and went out and got drunk However this turned out to be cool as i've got something interesting to talk about now! LOL
Yes Oh Hallejah Oh Woohaa (tears of joy) Yes woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo I am happy cos today...i handed my final piece of work in...i officially finished university. I've packed me bags, and returned home...back where i belong. I never been so happy seeing Nottingham again! WOOHOO!!! So what now? I dunno i'm just enjoying the freedom! No more uni, not for me, no more uni i am freeeeee no more essays, not for me, no more essays i am freeeeeeee No more presentations, not for me, no more presentations i am freeeeeee no more reading boring text books that uses complicated words to explain a simple thing, not for me, no more reading boring text books that uses complcated words to explain a simple thing, i am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yeeehaaaa! For the first time i've sat down and read a good book for leisure. The only thing that i am going to miss is gaelic football, it's the only thing i enjoyed in uni...but i'll still practice in my back yard though....he he he erm...i'm in the local library at the mo, the excitment is making me tap the keyboard hard, and i think i'm annoying my computer neighbours...shhhhhhh
I never had a panic attack before...until just over an hour or two ago...! If it wasn't for this site, explaining the exact same symptons i was going through, i would have thought i was dying or having a heart attack. I was lying in bed...thinking about all the recent poo that has been stressing me out! I haven't eaten properly for nearly 2 week, cos i had no money...until yesterday as the next installments of student loans came in (hurrah). Actually yesterday were extreme highs and lows, and i think my mind has been in overdrive, i just can't stop thinking about things, and i think it tipped me over the edge Student loan (yay) Buying food (yay) Housemate number one bacK (boo) Housemate chucked all her rubbish in my pots and pans (boo) Brought new clothes (yay) Unusally not coping with the busy city atmosphere whilst shopping (boo) The 'Skins' Episode number 8 was on (YAY) But the show was depressing and the hottest person on the show might die in the final episode, which was a shame cos the actual character in real life likes the same football team as I NOTTINGHAM FOREST OI OI OI (BOO) Mum called to tell me she is having hassle witht the local gangs in the area, climbing on to the roof and patio, bloody yobs (BOO) Mum has underactive thyroids and explained why her mood changed alot(boo) University (BOO) Feeling a sense of failure (Boo) wondering if i ever combat SA (Boo) beating my self up rotten over miniscule things (boo) Obessions with my look, i hate me ugly stupid (boo) worry over approaching people in my assignment (boo) Isolation (boo) Obessing over issues (Boo) and because of all of these BOOs, constantly thinking about negative things all the time, my body started to shake, and i didn't know why, i started to get really hot and pain went through my body. I felt like i couldn't control myself. I suddenlyfelt unwell, so i switched on the light and open the window, but my body started feel numb and pins and needles sensation, i felt doomed, a horrible sense of fear crept over me, my heart felt like it was beating 260bmp, and my head felt numb, and i felt, trippy and dizzy, everything seem abnormal and i was scared of everything around me! i wanted to scream, i was afraid, i ran out of my room and suddenly i just typed in panic attacked on google (unsual way to calm down but it worked) I read through the symptons and it matched mine. This site said it too and i was reliefed, but i cried afterwards, and sort of broke down. I don't think i suffer with panic disorder, but the feeling felt really similar to the time when i freaked out when i was 5 at school, it felt very similar. I was a very nervous kid when i was little. alot of bad things happened. But i am going to the doctor tomorrow, i think it's time to sort my head out, i've let my stress, and anxieties stretch long enough. I know i've got SA, and i do sometimes get OCD when i'm extremely stressed , and i'm depressed and my motivation levels stinks like...er...crap. oh and insomnia! I'm losing it and i'm fed up! Personally, what worried me, was i've been through rougher days than this, i think the truth is i think too much, like i'm doing now...thinking thinking thinking. I think i've supressed the problems too much and i just exploded...again thinking. so excuse me but arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhh today is my birthday, however i was born after 12pm which exempts me from being an April Fool! I was born 11:46 pm so techically i am still 23, not 24, although i prefer 24 cos i'm not keen on odd numbers, and 24 sounds cool...yeah...i'm 24...a real woman now, don't ID me...actually please do, as you think i look young...yeah! I think i will go shopping, i need slippers and CDs and erhem the sims 2 bon voyage and freetime to keep me busy for a while. Although the sims 3 is coming out next year, i dunno if i should just stop buying and wait for 3, it sounds awesome, god knows what sims 4,5,6,7,8,9 be like lol (yeah) Then i might go to the cinema, i might see one of my friends, she's got me a present so that would be nice! I think i try and sleep again now! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i go on i do zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
You know, i love my best mate to pieces, but since she's got with her new fella, she seems to have lost her sense of decency. Lately she keeps talking about him, and when's she get's change she doesn't bother covering herself, so i have to close my eyes, she keeps talking about her sexual antics and she walks around as if she's drugged up on smack or summat. I don't see her as much as i used too, but i don't mind as much now. A few nights ago it was my other friends birthday and so we got drunk, it was a messy night which resulted in my bestmates new boyfriend getting chucked out over a cloak room ticket. Anyways the birthday girl and her fella stayed in my room(don't wanna know the details and My best friend and her new boyfriend (who looks like that singer robbie williams)stayed in the livingroom with me. I couldn't get to sleep, coz me head was in a alcholic daze...and my bezzie mate and her fella thought i was fast asleep. And so they...erm...anyway....WHY DID THEY HAVE TO DO IT IN THE SAME GOD DAMN ROOM??? I tried loads things to try and put them off, i pretended to snore really loud, i pretended to talk in my sleep, but the only thing that seemed to work was pretending to fall off the sofa. Anyway i haven't said owt about it the next day, but today i have told her and i fell a whole lot better. It went sort off like this. Me: vanilla bear (yes we call each other vanilla and choco bear" Van: Yes choco one Me: erm van: are you ok me: er er yes..duzzant matter van: tell me tell me tell me Me: i heard you make funny noises van: w? Me: you had sex with your fella when you thought i was asleep and it was bloody rank to be honest. Van: i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, oh my god...what did i sound like Me: i rather forget...you sounded like whining puppy...i know you two tried to keep quiet but oh my god, i'm afriad you two are not staying in my house anymore, and why are you concerned about what you sound like...oh yeah, you sounded bloody amazing, i wish i sounded like you when you Van: SHUT IT...ENOUGH...OH GOD...but Me: If i did it with my ex, you'd have a field day...! I recorded it too Van: WHAT Me: i've recorded it and i'm going to put it on facebook VAN: no, please i'm sorry, i was drunk...i haven't been myself lately, when i', with him, i just forget about things ME: You could have least gone in the bathroom, oh my god, don't give my that loved up excuse, would you have done it in front of yer mother no...nah only joking, i didn't record it, Van: Choco bear.(bright red) oh god...i feel like a whore..a harlot...a huss bag Me: good, anyway, fancy a cup of tea? I'm glad i'd told her in the end. It wasn't as hard as i thought! but my god...has anyone experienced anything like this. Our friendship a little bit ruined, cos when she bumps into me, she blushes and i think she told her bloke because i said hi to him and he looked at me and blused and said "oh hello, erm...sorry...bye" and went. I am not having couples in my house again!
Boredom continues, as i've resorted to putting blue food colouring into my tea, just for novelty. It taste weird. I know i aint going to bake owt, so i'm trying to use it for other things, i might put it in my rice for dinner! sigh yawn! zzzzzzzzzzzzzz Now i am watching some strange tv show on channel four about some nutter who wants to make the best chocolate in the world! Is that possible i dunno. I'm going clubbing tonight, that's going to be interesting. My friend knows i won't dance on the dance floor unless i'm totally wankered, so she's bringing booze over to make me goosy loosy baby...goosy loosy, but i haven't had much sleep, so the combination of booze and sleep deprivation might end the night early (i hope, don't feel like dancing) still in pain after playing dodge ball with the gaelic girls. no one told me the game involved throwing balls at people, and the balls were hard, like volley ball balls, it hurt! My wicked housemates has gone home, but one of them fell out with the evil one and so she is being nice to me to prove a point...i don't mind, enjoy it while it last. Also i've been balancing books on my head, i'm trying to walk like a lady i'll stop rambling on, as writing longs blogs about nothing in particular can go on forever
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Bored
Posted On 03/03/2008 07:01:52
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It's just one of those boring days that i haven't done anything at all...not even my dissertation! At 3 in the afternoon is when i woke up...lol...and then i went to iceland to buy a frozen pizza and a kitkat, walked back, watched TV, i watched MADE, Hollyoaks, coronation street, and a documentary about woment drinking too many glasses of wine. Then i went on the Made website, started filling the form in to be on the show...but it turns out you have to be living in america...so my dreams becoming a metal singer was thrown out of the window! Then i went on an old website, and find that my blogs are still there since 2004...it was so ######## embarrising. and now i am on here, telling you how bored i am...i am going to bed! I spent a good 15 minutes today balancing books on my head because i wanted to improve my posture when i walk, i think i slouch too much...didn't work, and my housemate came downstairs asking what all the thudding was about! I told her the books fell from my desk! Half an hour ago i was dancing to my music, well headbanging, with my guitar, pretending that i was playing before deftones at the download festival...help me i need a life I'm skint...roll on student loan and then i can go shopping! what do you do when you're bored and have no money???
I have returned from the Gaelic Football championship, lost by a point, but the weekend was brilliant. It gave me an opportunity to tell the girls i've got SA and they said that they are proud on how much i progressed. I really stuck into that pitch, to the point that i'm cut and bruised and absent a toe-nail! LOL!!! It's just the shame, that my little bubble is burst by my increasingly annoying 817c#3$ of housemates. I thought about cooking a decent meal for myself, until one of the girls decided to use one of my pans for cooking, and i politely said the saucepan is mine, and she turned and stared at me like a piece of poo and said...no it's mine! The lump in my throat and the sudden shock prevented me to fight back, and now in my head i've resolved the situation by saying to myself i buy another one. I feel so lucky i got dark skin cos i felt my face burning up, you could dry clothes on my face, that's how hot it was. I don't understand why she hates me so much! And so i decided that i must not let her drag me down and seem less confident, and so i'm going to do the imaginable...i'm going to talk! talk her to the ground! I'm going to annoy her like she annoys me! YEAH FIGHTING TALK but will that happen??? I dunno, i don't care she's a nob-head! I've been nothing but nice to her, i just don't understand why she's being so mean to me. bitch! Anyways it's got me down now cos i usually stay at my mates house to get away from the pressure. But she's got herself a new bloke and so, well, my stopping over her house days is over. And it's annoying cos she keeps talking about her sexual experiences in such graphic detail that it is wrong...! And some of the stuff she told me aint normal!
Anyways i reckon this house situation maybe a good practice to fight SA, throwing myself in the situation rather than hiding away in the room! I don't usually write blogs, but my god, i could give all my house mates a jolly good hiding...with a whip (in a none kinky way)
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