I don't think I can come up with a valid excuse for neglecting to reply to your comment going way back. I've been working, changed jobs, and went on holiday as well. It's not that I thought oh my life is 'better' now I shall forget about my online friends. It's just that I've been feeling a bit unworthy of posting and such.... How are you now?
I went to London and Belgium on a short trip, met up with an internet friend and feeling more confident now. Had Belgium chocolates for breakfast, hey it's a tough job but somebody's gotta do it ;)
What you have is most likely just extreme shyness and depression, but I don't know for sure since I've not met you in person before. I hope that your anxiety-level eventually drops down.
When I got diagnosed with having S.A.D., I knew that it had to be something else, because when I was a kid I acted in such a bizarre manner. I could sit for many minutes at a time playing with string while staring at it while concentrating, I'd memorize books, flashing lights and other kinds of visual stimuli would excite me inside and make me 'stim', among many other things. I knew that I had aspergers for sure when I read about 'stims', which I'd been doing my entire life, without knowing what the fluck I was doing.
Have you ever read much on aspergers before? Most people with aspergers never end up getting diagnosed, and live their entire lives thinking that they're just extremely awkward and shy people. Aspergers is extremely common, so maybe you can read about it a little bit to see if there's a possibility that you have it or not? How are your social skills though? If your social skills are fine, then you probably don't have aspergers. I just figured that I'd tell you to look into it just in case. If I would have found out that I had aspergers at a younger age, it would have spared me lots of depression.
Do anything fun?
