My anxiety prevents me from getting out there much so I don't really have too many hobbies... I like to drink because it helps me tone down my anxiety and be more social. I like to read alot, i just like to be informed. I like to make tshirts.. sketch (I do portraits, mostly of women they're more fun to draw) I will play guitar hero with my brothers but i guess thats not really a hobby...i d k...

Crash, Deja Vu, Requim for a Dream, I am Legend, The number 23, The Notebook, Thunderheart, Smoke Signals, PowWow Highway...

...mostly anything that makes me feel good or brings back good memories..Genitorturers, Down, NIN, Otep, MSI, Type O Negetive, Atmosphere, Nirvana....

V.C Andrews "Flowers in the Attic"
Dean Koontz "From the Corner of his Eye"

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Eye contact, mystery, artistic, "himself".

Getting called sexy to me is not a compliment, it tells me the you are just thinking of sex. I do like being called pretty though... Dont get that much. I dont like men that drench them selves in cologne, Cockiness is a huge turn off....and I dont want the guy every girl wants no matter how good looking and charismatic, they are just too highly demanded and therefore makes them hard to trust.

*Random Facts About Seaira*

Im a cancer...Im very emotional and I tend to take things to heart. I have to force myself to smile and I think it looks scary, Im half Native American and am from the Roseau River Anishinabe First Nation in Canada... Cancer is on both sides of my family and that also worries me... My anxiety forced me to drop out of school in 7th grade and had led me into a drug and drinking phase in which my anxiety seemed to disappear and my anger had taken over...I went to a residential treatment and graduated in 2005... I have been drug free for almost a year and have yet to quit drinking... I dont have any true friends, I put up a defense and Im awkward... Im co-dependant and I wish it weren't that way.. it will get better though...I love animals...I want to be a cosmetologist..I can keep going if you want?



Dont ask again Zach is a friend! lol


You are always on my mind! Miss you GORJUST!


I still think about you everytime I hear the song SO WHAT by CRASS! Miss you!


Angel Withouts Wing
Early morning an angel awakes, a tear in her eyes, scared and terrified, you can hear it in her cries, she wonders why, she has to be scared of this life, so much more wrong then right, she's here to fight, a cold stare in her eyes, as she stares in the light. she was never the type, to give up thru the hard, her beauty is like art , only the truth in her heart, she'll never fall apart, she'll never lose the spark, in a world filled with dark, it's hard for her to believe, it's more for her to achieve, she rolls up her sleeve, she's ready to bleed, ready to fight for her beliefs, let out a sigh of relief, for an angel will save us, before we all lay in dust, she'll pray for our lust, let's savor the trust, she won't be here forever, an angel without a feather, an angel without wings, to warn us of danger, this angel will sing. -silentchill- (thanks for letting me put on my page =])