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25 years old
Mississippi
United States
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running, walking, swimming, laying out, eating out, dancing, singing, movies, traveling
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multitude of different music
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friendly people, honesty, humor, laughing, understanding, compromising,
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rudeness, cruelty, dishonesty, selfishness, argumentative, controlling people, angry people,
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When I was in elementary school I was the class clown. I was always trying to make my classmates laugh. I was well liked. When I started Junior High School, I begin to become fearful of my classmates. I was withdrawn and had very little friends. I would be made fun of because I did not talk much. I became even more withdrawn. I was afraid to go into the lunch room, leave the classroom to go to the restroom, get in front of the class, and ride the school bus to and from school. I hated feeling like this. I was afraid to do anything. I joined the cheerleading squad to overcome my fears, but then we would have bake sales during recess. That did not go over very well. I was afraid to sell the snacks because I would have to count the other students change back to them. I never wanted to put myself out there to do that because I had not learned how to quickly make change. I feared humiliation. I began drinking alcohol around the age of 15 and used alcohol as my crutch. In high school it was bad too. I would hide out in the bathroom and library during break. I made little friends again. I continued to use alcohol. In addition, I was afraid to go to the mall or grocery store by myself. I stayed home many nights depressed because of my social anxiety. When I graduated from high school, I finally realized that I needed help and went to a professional. I was prescribed Paxil. I drank with Paxil and that was the worst thing I could do. I ended up making horrible choices while drinking with medication. Now I take Ativan and I try not to drink while taking it, but I sometimes do. I've tried cutting down on the alcohol. Ativan does not help much. I wish the doctor would give me Xanx, but of course they will not give it to young adults.
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