Here's my personal take...

I often feel like I do something social...but when it's over, I usually go home and it's usually alone.  I feel like I want my life to be filled with people, filled with doing things, filled with being busy all the time.  Not having enough time to even spend any time alone would feel great.  It seems.  I guess I'm trying to make up for ALL the many years spent sitting at home doing nothing.  I'm not, at this moment, doing very well with getting out, as I'm having a hard time meeting people.  Plus, with my current situation I don't have any extra spending money, so even if I could find some people to do stuff with, paying for it would be another issue! 

I find lately that I can't watch movies or TV or read a book without thinking- I wish I were doing something creative myself.  Now me, I want to make movies and television.  I want to write novels.  I want to do stuff like that and be consumed with those tasks.  So, I easily find myself envying anyone who makes a living making movies, acting, writing, directing.  It takes the joy out of just viewing.  I used to love to watch tv and movies (I did so much of it, I better have enjoyed it!)  Lately, as I said, I just feel like I envy the person doing it.  They're creating, they're keeping busy, they're active...no way they can be lonely, going home alone and wishing they had something to do, that sort of thing. 

I think, for me, the biggest thing is spending SO much time these past many years not having anything to do, so I had to watch tv in my room or sit alone and read or surf the net.  Now, when I do something, it never feels like enough.  I never feel like I made a true connection, and if I feel halfway like I made a good connection socially, it feels like I don't want it to end, lest I never get the chance again.  I want my life FILLED with these moments to make up for all the lost time and moments these many years.  When life isn't just packed with them, I feel almost a failure for it.  I have to remind myself that most people spend time alone each day part of the time, they're not constantly filled with things to do.  I realize a lot of people that are social, which is what I so badly to be, DO go out a lot, DO spend a lot of time with others, DO spend less time alone than they do with others (and less time alone than I spend alone), but hopefully I can simply keep trying to make connections, figure out new ways to meet people, figure new things to fill my life with, etc.  And I'll someday feel like I presume THEY feel on a regular basis.   

Hopefully that all makes sense. 

I can totally understand the whole idea of being too unsettled to focus on anything. To just let go and do. That just seems so hard sometimes. There are lots of times I can't settle down on what's before me---writing a passage, reading a book, watching TV or whatever.

I think a lot of the posts had good ideas. That it's a "panic" type mode and just a disgruntlement over how life IS currently, when you crave life to be so much more. It means you're unsatisfied with what is right now. That would make you want to change it, but it seems change is just so hard to do. The disgruntlement should be motivational enough, but it isn't sometimes. (Grrr.)

I know what you mean too. Succeeding at little goals is great, especially the getting out and walking. But then you do it, it's over, and you're like, what now? I walk around all day thinking, 'what now?' I hate it. I spend hours at a time on this site trying to fill some of that void, trying to make up for all the lack of communication in my real life (which I don't think is the answer BTW, but it's better than doing nothing.)

i hope you can lower your anxiety. Having a bigger picture plan might help, some goals you want to achieve. And anytime you think 'what now?' you could have some things in mind to do that would contribute to your bigger picture goals. That way, you could be chipping away at them, and that might reduce your anxiety a little... I guess I should try taking my own advice. *gulps*