Just living day to day.......

Anything that sends an emotional response to my senses. I will try any type of movie once, and if I like it, many times after that. My advice here is: Don’t be afraid to try something you may not think you will like, because you may surprise yourself and even surprise whoever you are sharing the experience with!

One of my new favorites : AMOS LEE


Wow. I will only say this, just as I do not limit myself in other parts of my life. Here is where it makes a great deal of sense. Musicians are the voices of people everywhere. They have so much power over human emotion that I would love to have a lifetime dedicated to listening to all the music around. They have the power to affect feelings that some did not even know they had bottled up in them. They produce feelings of, happiness, sadness, despair, joy, envy, energy, heartbreak, love, passion....and on and on. They write from the heart which is why it affects so many hearts. All music is great in it's own way, and I think everyone has at LEAST one musician that has effected or even changed their life.

There is nothing better than a bookstore. So much knowledge and art out there, it is truly amazing what the human mind is capable of, given the right direction. Even people that have suffered as I have suffered have helped me by writing informational books, so I can try and understand myself a little better. I am convinced that if there were a Heaven, it would smell like books, coffee, cinnamon rolls, and somewhere in-between orange blossoms. I love books. If I had to say what would interest me in a bookstore, I would go to reference sections (including psychology and beauty treatments…..my guilty pleasure is makeup), astrology, religion, and medical/health related books first. I have read some fiction but primarily, Vampire/Werewolf/Dragon Horror books (I really like the comical/horror style of “MARY JANICE DAVIDSON” If you like Vampire books, check out hers they are awesome, and easy to read and get caught up in!

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Not so sure these are actually "Turn ons”, however as far as people go. I am pretty open to all sorts of people. I feel that if I never met anyone that challenged me or my ideals, then I would be denying myself the chance to grow as a human being. I like to meet people and hear all perspectives. Who knows someone may make me a better person in the process.

Your Social Anxiety Level: 84%




You have extreme social anxiety.

Your social phobia is a serious problem for you, and you definitely need help.

And while getting help may seem very scary, it's your only choice... except for hermitude!




I guess this area is an enigma for me. So far throughout my rather short life span (in comparison to a natural healthy human life span), I have been challenged with things that I thought would instantly turn me off. I used to be pretty black and white about a lot of issues, but now certain circumstances have helped me accept the unexpected. Please do not get me wrong there are some evil acts committed by some that I just do not understand; however, I am much more apt to explore the notion that there are usually more factures involved then at first glance. People of all kinds have "issues" others have them more severe, but no one is living an issue free life, and if there is someone out there, I would absolutely love to meet she/he, and bask in their divine glory. My Mom is not religious and neither am I, we both feel there is something bigger out there, just the idea of organized religion is not for us. Anyway she told me once " Shannara, I am not sure I believe in GOD , but I do believe in GOOD ", that has stuck with me ever since. How can you go wrong if you believe in being good, and doing right by others. No one is perfect and to expect that from anyone is expecting too much.

Well this section is always hard to fill out because , I find it hard to express myself to people, and I don't have a lot positive to say about myself and as the saying goes " If you can't say something nice...." you get the picture. Anyway I suppose I have similar issues as most people here ( SAD ), I also suffer from depression ( by clinical standards ) , I have in the past been diagnosed Bipolar/Manic depressive....problem there was I never had manic episodes , so recently I had a Dr. diagnosed me with Borderline Personality Disorder ( which has it's own bag of goodies ). I am currently unemployed, do to the fact that I am terrified to even leave my house, fearing I might have to talk to anyone, let alone the fact that interviews are almost impossible to get though (I have been employed in the past; however, the saying "It's not what you know, it's who you know" absolutely applied there) and the other interviews I actually went though were a nightmare for me. I also have a huge, huge phone phobia, I used to think I was alone in the phone area, but this site has assured me the opposite is true. Despite all this craziness, I am a pretty compassionate person, which would do anything anyone asked of me. I try to live a life of good morals the best I know how. I've always been one that people (ok maybe only family and my BF, but I have a large family) can go to for advice; however, I lack something when it comes to fixing myself....maybe someday, Someday, a glimpse of a future without fear (which I believe is one of the largest causes to any mental disorder) would be a nice. A day to wake up and be optimistic about what is to come is all I could ask for. All material things come and go, but happiness, a life without fear, guilt and judgment would be really something....really something to live for.

This is me with a little too much to drink....Kasey is my Cuz and Good Friend





Your Personality Is Like Acid




A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.

One moment you're in your own little happy universe...

And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!