Hey there Spinal99, I believe we have a few things in common. I am also 25, I live with my parents still and can't stand it, I have never had a girlfriend either. As the years go by, I purposely loose contact with my old friends. The few that I do have left, I avoid contacting anyway. The last friend that I hung out with was telling me about how he has 3 girlfriends…which is wrong in a number of ways…but I didn’t feel any better after hearing that. From time to time, I hear about the people that I went to high school with that are already married and have kids, and have a life and all of that, even the people that graduated 3 years after I did, and it all makes me feel like I am not suppose to be on this planet. My self esteem is in the toilet as well; although I believe it may have been flushed already...I have been going through a lot of depression also. I can't sleep at night because of it sometimes. I don't have the motivation to get out of bed everyday, but I have to. I am sorry to sound so depressing, but that is a little taste of what my life is like. I just wanted to let you know that you are not the only one who feels these feelings and is in the same situation. I should probably see someone about this, but I don’t do it. I am glad that you already have a therapist to talk to about this. I am also glad to see that you have tried dating, and that you are going on a kayaking trip as well. From what I see, you seem more social than I do. Please keep up with these things good things, and I hope that everything else will get better for you.

Thank you! Yeah I seriously want to be happy for the guy and I am very happy for him, he's been through a lot. But he's only 20 and I'm 25. So I did get a bit jealous, I've never had a girlfriend before.

Yeah I'll definately lose the weight, I'll have to post some pics of myself up when I'm done lol. Anyway, you're right, I've never lost weight for myself before, since my self esteem and self repect are in the toilet. I always did it so people would look at me differently, and when they didn't I'd just gain the weight back. But I'll do it for myself this time. I also have a friend who is keeping track of my weight loss! I've never tried that before.

I'm also going on a kayaking trip with a local anxiety group tomorrow. I'm a bit nervous abhout it but they are probably nervous too.

Anyway, thank you!

I know when i hear of other peoples happiness i should be pleased for them, and i am really, but it tends to leave me thinking "humph, why should they find love and not me", sometimes it feels like everyone in the world has someone, but its not really true.

By all means lose weight and exercise, but do it for you, and not for how you want others to see you, theres a great deal more to a person than that, and anyone worthwhile will see that.

Try and find a little bit of happiness this weekend, think of something you'd really enjoy, even if its just a walk, listening to music or reading a book.

and take good care of yourself