I've been fighting off my sa and depression for a good 6 months now with the help of a therapist and meds, but I've been living with it since I was 13. I've only just started to make friends again, but I have yet to meet them in person. I still live at home with my parents and I'm having more and more problems at home. I want to get another job and make enough money to move out. I also work at home, so I'm at home a lot. Things is, I'm in the worst shape when I am home. I hardly ever get a reason to leave. I want to leave, but there isn't anything to do, I have no friends to hang out with, no job to go to. My mother still treats me like I'm 15 even though I'm 25. I do the laundry, dishes, vacuuming, and yard work. So many other people my age have their own lives and relationships. I've never had a girlfriend, no friends for 7 years, and here I am doing chores on the weekends while everyone else is out living their lives.
I've been trying to change this over the summer. But it's going painfully slow, I'm trying to focus on what I've done so far, I've made new friends online and some other things. But I feel like at the pace I'm going, it'll take years to pull out of this. The main thing for me at the beginning of the summer was to finally get a girlfriend. I'm so sick of being lonely and seeing couple out there who love each other and are having fun. But now I'm just trying to make some friends, and I'm trying to put dating aside for now.
I just feel like it will never end, it's taking so long, and I'm trying so hard to catch up with everyone else.
