I saw a therapist for the first time in years last Friday. I initially wanted to get meds & went to the hospital to try to make an appointment. It's been years since I've been there so they made me see a therapist first. My new therapist is pretty cool. He's the head of the anxiety division. I worked on my SA before but never really worked on GAD & he thinks that not working on the GAD held me back. I think he's right. It definitely contributes to my SA. He gave me a book to read & I've read a couple chapters so far. I'm supposed to talk about what I've read at a GAD group I'm going to start going to.
My doc is gonna have a psychiatrist call me so I can set up an appointment to get meds. I'm hoping to try beta-blockers to help w/ physical tension & get a benzo to take as needed. I gotta find something that helps before school starts on the 22nd. I'm feeling desperate. I've made a lotta improvement but I'm still nowhere near "normal". I'm kinda stressing about my finances. Not sure if I'll be able to afford med insurance much longer. I might have to stop going to school & find a job early next year or in the spring. It's gonna take me forever to get a degree. I'm not even sure what I wanna major in LOL Things are definitely gonna change for me this next year. I just hope they don't change for the worse.
