I just saw the movie New Guy and I SO WISH I HADN'T. The thing is I talk about God or some sick quincidence that sends me messages that makes me think otherwise, and THIS is exactly that time. I am pretty sure is God though.
ANY-WAYSS I was about to go about to the road of jackass(The blogs not far from this one) when I for some reason wanted to watch a movie, not just any movie but a comedy. I was searching and searching and the description caught my eye, this nerdy guy transforms into a badass. And I was like hmmmm okay Ill give it a try. The WEIRDEST THING is this happens to me ALMOST EVERYTIME! It's like this sort of answer falls from the sky and it's like leading me to the right way or something. Call me insane but that's exactly how I think of it.
Like in the movie that blog could have been a point in my life that could have changed my life completely... Well I was really commited too, I won't go into the details but the reason for me feeling that way is SOO WEIRD and UNCOMMON that even if I tell it to you, I fear that I will get a "what the" back. It might sound like I am taking other people light or something but seriously this experience is TOO GOTDAMNIT(As you can see I am leaving God out of it) WEIRD lol.
Anyways I don't know but I am sure I am not crazy... and for awhile there I was kinda losing my faith in God... I am a pretty weird guy. But what do you know the movie was corny as HELL yes. but still it had an important message for me at this time.
Yes I was thinking that acting hard and badass would be still giving a fuck. Because if you truly didn't give a fuck, you wouldn't wear clothes at all or you would wear raggety @$$ clothes from some 99c store.(I hope this got through to you, cuz even if I read it back I don't even know what I just said.)
I don't know but I am still keeping my word about not doing any favors for people cuz I don't like doing favors LOL. Just staying true to myself, yes sometimes I like to do stuff for other people but thats on my own time, I just don't like doing something for other people if they ask in some "trying to take advantage of" way? I know it might not make sense but nothing needs to make sense in crazy town, that being my brain lol.
Well it seems like not giving a $&#^% about other people would help with sad, NO DUHHHH. But maybe not giving a $&#^% about other people is a given... I mean if other people cared about other people(Most of the time), they would be going crazy with all the paranoia.
This has given a important listen to me. DON'T GIVE A FUCK! Not just because it's normal, but its GOOD FOR YOU! 
I don't know, I am not saying Don't give a $&#^% in some snobby @$$ way, but just don't give a $&#^% in general, but still be nice lol.
For awhile there I was thinking Not giving a $&#^% was weird or bad... but on a second thought giving a $&#^% is kinda bad too. I mean do other people truly give a fuck? Even if they say I give a fuck, they don't really give a $&#^% THATTT MUCH~~~~
This might not be true, but people in GENERAL are selfish, (Whoah a dark thought there).
Maybe I am sounding really weird but if you get in my mind right now it makes sense in some weird @$$ way lol.
Whoahh these days I am having the weirdest times in my life, I feel kinda weird too. I think I am possibly going insane, but since I know it I must be fine lol.
And no I am not drunk in anyway, it's just that I feel happy in some weird @$$ way. Not the optimistic happy, but the kind that you only get when your a mad man happy.
And it seems that just admitting I am really weird is for some reason making me happy. Is there such thing as Good weird?
Okay I am normal now... wait maybe I am not.
