I had a dream last night that I was trying to kill myself. I kept fighting with myself. I'm supposed to be working on getting better so I'm not allowed to do things like that but at the same time I had an overwhelming need to hack on my arm with a razor. Now I'm having issues today. I guess even dreams can be triggers. It's weird how cutting becomes like an addiction. I'm doing perfectly fine today but still I'm feeling the need to cut. Going to have to try and keep myself busy tonight so I don't try anything stupid.
