Theres a  huge rock in my path , i noticed it last night, spent the night trying to work out how to get over it, strange because its the same rock thats there everyday, maybe some days i don't notice it, maybe i choose to ignore it, or maybe its just grown while i wasn't looking.

I fight the fight everyday, i'm so used to it sometimes i don't even notice i'm doing it, but i have no choice but to keep on going and hope i can beat all this.

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Sometimes I think that I prefered just being shy and strange to knowing that I have social phobia... there was something in the between the awkward pain and the mystery that gave a unique messy shine to things. I knew something was going on, something different, didn't know what it was.. accepted that, didn't care. "I'm strange, I'll always be strange... I can waste my life fighting it, or I can accept that and revel in it." And that's what I did for as long as I possibly could. Just a total... Read More

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I wasted the last 4 days programming. I worked through a tutorial for game programming and my own terrain thingee. It was fun, but tomorrow I have to start an essay for school :(. I haven't studied for over a week! I hope I don't fail everyhting. I'm thinking of quitting again anyway. Why do I always quit!?

Here's a picture of my program. Its really just for testing stuff at the moment. Its all 3D and waves move. Still got a long way to go!

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Hi my name is Chris and this is my first time on this site. Just being here makes me nervous. I am a nerd, I love to play video games my favorite is Mass Effect. I have blond hair and blue eyes and i am 6'7". I am an extremely quiet guy. I don't know what else to say today, so more tomorrow.

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This sucks, I'm sick with a darn cold. I go back to work tomorrow and I hope I feel somewhat better, thats the worst thing working with patients when you feel like crap.

I was off work all last week bc of GUSTAV.. aka no work no pay so that sucks!!

I think I will go dope up on some Nyquil

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