For those of you who take the time to say something back to this, first off I want to tell You thank You!
It is hard sometimes to be Honest with ones self along with others. So this is a person blog and me stepping out on a limb and sharing.
Like me sharing my paintings or Photos of me NOT NAKED. They do not have the same response. Which Just proved My husband, write.........thanks guys.......but sometimes I do look at this world with Rose colored glasses.......silly me.....and I have a friend on this site that who does not understand some of me and well tons of you. But I'm talking about this friend because we met and he wanted to go to Our Saturday Market. And I could not.........My anxieties would not let me, oh yes i made something up...and so forth and so on. I don't lead a Normal life what ever Normal is........http://www.socialanxietyfriends.com/ladyrhea
this is the group I have been at. and No I'm Not naked. And My name as you see is Ladyrhea........my dad named a race horse Ladyrhea. I never got my photo taken in the winner circle but, oh well she won......! So its a Name I pick with great Pride. She Won. I feel Like a Looser most of every day off my life. Oh trust me I can hide my illness and I can call it that, because it Goes threw our family. My Mother had this, She said one day to herself. STOP!! and she finally did. Trust me I have tried that. For those of you that want to say ( Just say NO) its not that easy for some of us.
So You can see how I feel Blessed and also Hurt with my friends, the ones that I thought were more my friend and the ones that really really are my friends. My prayer partner, I love you sweet pea and you know I would not make it with out you. My Girl friend over in Canada I'm sorry I let you down. You said I had to start the page or site and you will help. Well that's part of it, I cant do it alone, or i feel like I cant. I could not start. and as you saw i did start finally but it may take another six months to get to another part. lol.........I wont Give, I'm saying I'm having a very hard @$$ time write now. Have been in prayer about it and I know that I have to cry and I have to let go.......I'm opening myself here. And I'm pretty much betting that Maybe I will get oh lets see its a number between 0-5 .... I don't blame anyone, it hurts i won't say it does not. But then I'm on a site ware Sex is more important then Life. Or maybe EVERYONE it is Life. Don't take me wrong its one area of my life i have said I wont give up.
Ok anyway as always its long and the less people will read it. Love you all. I hope to be feeling better soon. xoxoxoxxo
this a blog I wrote at my other site. Its a site I have belonged to about 4 years. But no one knows this side of me. So I was sharing at a very hard time in my life. Well I'm still having the hard time I'mtalking about it and sharing and reaching out.
thank you for reading, rhea
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