I was practicing arc welding the other day and I managed to electrocute myself. The electrical short or 'arc' emitted by the welding tip and used to ignite the gas that actually melts the steel traveled through the welding rod, past my work gloves, into my hand, and I guess through my body. The machine was set to around 50 amps but I guess is was less than 2 amps because, well, I'm still alive. It did leave a little elelctrical burn on my left middle finger (looks like a perfectly round callous with a black dot in the center). I think that I've also been have some heart arrhythmias but I think that's getting better.
The strange thing is that instead of being more terrified of everything, I've instead felt more inclined to challenge my fears. I wouldn't describe it as recklessness but rather as a sort of post near death rebirth that has been stunted a bit by SA. In the back of my mind, I'm thinking that I only have a few more years to live because this arrhythmia is going to cause a clot or something that will kill me so I should try to be nice to people and what not (I'm usually one cold, unfriendly son of a bitch). If anything, stiffness on the left side of my body is a constant remiinder that my time is limited (it also makes me kind of dizzy so I'm less inhibited).
You're probably thinking that I should see a doctor if I'm having all these problems but I won't....because I am scared.
That did not make any sense lol
