Today I felt really anxious, it was my most anxious moment of the year. I went for my driving lesson and my instructor took me to the testing ground to watch how the test was being done. A small crowd of people gather to watch the test next to a building on much higher ground.
I was fine being in a crowd but when we had to leave my driving instructor told me to go to the car while he spoke to someone. I had to walk about 100metres and was the only person walking across. I felt as if all eyes were on me. I was so tentative, my anxiety has been so low this year I didn't even realise I felt anxious.
When I got home I still felt scared, I thought about it for a while. It felt like I was back in high school when I was an awkward teen and my SA was at its worst.
I feel much better now, I don't think it be so bad if I had to do it again. I've grown a lot and I just have to relize that I'm much stronger than I was before.
Tags: Anxiety
