just my luck to day i find out that there going to have a surprise birthday party for my sister 21st 3 hours later im in my room and
i hear lots of people start to come in so i w8t for them to all come in like for 1/2 HOUR!!! 20 ARE MORE PEOPLE come after thats all
over i try to sneak out of my room prying no one will see me
and wow i get out to my front door and walk out and omg
theres like 10 are more people i start shaking and my harts
going like 100 miles a hour fill like i can fall over and throw up
so i just look down and walk real fast to the side of the house
so i can smoke my cigarette after that i just run up to my room and act like im sleeping and my damn cusin knocks on my door i dont say anything o well im sill im my room and I HAVE TO SMOKE AGAIN got to do the same thing i did before man i just cant take this any more
i wont to have a life this isolation is driveing me mad and i cant take it any longer
like 4 days ago i was madly depressed so i put out 5 cigarette
on my arm and cut my self up with a razer blade so i have like
6 band ads on my arm so im trying to hide my arm when i go
down and i just know if im around to long some one gonna say what did you do to your arm o well i hope i didnt bore any one i just i just want to get some of this off my chest fill like i have no one to talk to are if i even wont to
