For those who had tuned in for the last episode where I was pondering taking on a new challenging position in my company but was holding myself back because of anxiety.... I decided to not pursue the position. Not because of my anxiety exactly, but because I have a lot going on in my personal life: marriage, hopefully starting a family soon, buying and moving into a new apartment (used but new to us). All of these plans should be happening within the next 12 months and I felt that I would be doing a disservice to myself and my company by accepting that new position. I did still go through with the job interview process that had been scheduled (needed two anxiety calming pills to get through it, but it went well). I saw the Director of Human Resources and even updated my resume. She felt that my candidacy was perfect for the position but she understood about my personal plans taking priority. I felt relieved after making my decision and continued to feel that way for a good week. Since then, I've had my ups and downs with anxiety and with my job and a few tinges of regret, but I think this is the best decision for me at this time in my life. Just because I turned this position down doesn't mean that there will not be others for me later. I need this "down" time in a job where I am settled to collect myself and focus on what is most important in my life right now - well being, love, growth. The environment I am in now is conducive to those things whereas for the other work environment, it was very questionable.
So, there you have it. This is part 2 of Difficult Decision, but we have to make those all our lives so this is not the final episode.
Cheerio!
