Perhaps I'm just tired, but I'm feeling incredibly helpless and sad right now. I keep wondering, are all these hopes I have just illusions? I'm just going to wake up one day and realize that I've been spinning stories for my own life. I'll be left alone and disappointed. I had opportunities in front of me today for a moment and they were gone as soon as my eyes began to shift to avoid eye contact and I began speaking for the sake of saying something, anything, but only words I'd regret would come out. I want help so much it hurts. How can I get help though when I can't get the words out and past the fear?
