Hi its been a while, well lets see this last week has been one from hell i woke at 3am with pain that was unbelivable though't i was going to kark it, called 000, and got to ER few xrays scans turns out it was kidney stone damn 1st one hopefully last one , still dont think i passed it so ill go back this week to get another xray hate ER"s.
as ya can imagine played with the anxiety side of things and head, on top of that i am trying to move house or wait for dept of housing to , so some more issues i think im obsessing worrying about, and on top of that some family issues so its been a great few months i wonder if life will ever be mundane for a bit trying to do some positive tapes stuff to get myself mentally stronger, seems everything i do atm is a struggle but it always could be worst cheers Hooroo OJ
