So today I felt the urge to purge some thoughts and this is what has been on my mind lately. Through meeting new people and experiencing new things, i realize more and more every day that I will always and forever value emotional intelligence over intellect. As much as i value intellect, the awareness of ones emotional standpoint is so much more beneficial in the long run and far outweighs it. A close second to that is a good solid sense of humor. This usually consists of the ability to laugh at the most improper things (or what is deemed improper in our society) I laugh therefore I am. Sensitivity is a third, but this can get hairy, as one can be too insensitive or uber sensitive. Both can get you into uproarious trouble.
I have been reckless, rude, insecure, flighty and every other synonym you can think of for "emotionally selfish" I strive not to be these things when dealing with peoples emotions and am a hypocrit when i see it happen to me. OMG i can't beleive how uncaring and selfish that was. Right, i haven't done it? Some will justify cruelty as a vengeance as people getting their karma, what they deserve b/c every body gets it. Some are even oblivious to their cruelty. Whatever the reason, you have to accept the weaknesses of others and yourself. I don't mean sit around and take it, i mean realize they have a lot to learn and move the $&#^% on.
In my case, I grew up lacking much love and devotion in life. I was pampered in all the wrong areas, such as wealth and gifts. You don't exactly mold into the most independent and thoughtful person. When things are constantly given to you in place of love, you forget the meaning of the concept. You can dwell on and feel sorry for yourself for your unfortunate upbringing or you can grow from the realization and make changes. No matter how late in the game, there is always time. You may not have the chance one day, but you will the following. The point is there's always a chance waiting for you. There was a saying in one of my favorite movies " Every passing moment is another chance to turn it all around" Nothing deep, simple and to the point. I stand by that notion. It is never too late to improve upon yourself, never too late to make changes. To some this may sound like another broken record of someone else coming to an epiphany, to me it's just a simple thought process that leads me to believe i am getting somewhere, closer to the goal i want to achieve.
Honestly, i cannot fathom how anyone would be comfortable not improving upon themselves or changing or learning in some way. I'm learning from my mistakes and no longer dwelling on them endlessly hoping for a change to miraculously transpire. Doesn't that get tiring? Some people go their whole lives never noticing this and living in anger and doubt. I consider it a mental feat when you realize and do something about it. Settling on your weaknesses is cowardly and easy and that is why so many people do it. Accept your faults, your quirks, your looks, your pickiness, your body, your mind and improve upon what is there. It's sad how much we have developed into a society that fail to admire the beautiful irregularities of human kind.
Yes, these thoughts have occurred to me before, but i never took them in and digested them as much as i have recently or most likely, i ran from it. Everyone does, but very few actually pay attention to what they're realizing or accept it. Accept things. People will hurt you and you will hurt them. It's all about the learning process. The confusion is normal, but to dwell is not. Realize that as much as they have hurt you, you have probably hurt someone else and if you haven't , it's only a matter of time. We are humans and we make mistakes. Sometimes we have to make these mistakes in order to understand how we feel. We can do everything in our power to prevent these mistakes and that is the beauty in it, improving yourself, trying to be a better person. Too many people gain strength from building up their self worth in the most hurtful ways. This is because it's easy. Easy will get you nowhere. Well, easy will get you ghonorea. lol I'm done.
Wait!...Listen to "Sunscreen" by Baz Luhrmann. Best advice from one person, in one sitting, I have ever gotten.
Inspiring video on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jZppyqny3g
For those of you lazy bastards, click this for lyrics =) http://homepage.ntlworld.com/gary.hart/lyricsl/luhrmann.html
