I wrote my last exam for the semester yesterday, I'm pretty sure I've passed them all this semester which is unusual for me. I was feeling very nostalgic afterwards, thinking of friends and people I use to know. I don't know, is its normal to hold on to the past when you're moving forward in life? I haven't had I wonderful life but its enough to want to hold on too, the future scares me.
Coincidentally I met a high school friend later that afternoon, my parents were with me in a store so it was awkward. I've always had problems being myself around my parents so I spoke to my old friend very softly, I couldn't stay long so we spoke for a few minutes I shook his hand and said goodbye, it wasn't too weird.
I no longer have the after thoughts, you know "did I say something stupid? I hope he didn't get the wrong idea", all those doubting thoughts that never seem to let you go.
It wasn't a typical Durban afternoon, the wind was cold, the sun a sandy red, the skies a barren blue. Even the traffic was calm for a change, everything seemed to be winding down.
As we drove out of the city, I noticed so many buildings that had changed, the entire city seemed to have developed without me knowing. It finally occurred to me that I had changed. That my life had changed dramatically, that I was no longer the same person I use to be. I don't know why it is, situations change, and people change but it always take me a while to get my head around it.
