Sorry that I didn't post anything from long ago but really the same boring lonely life
Today I cant get out of home and this is not my first time to feel this I feel so depressed and sad I have fears too No one know how I feel or what is inside me. If I told anybody that I am at home he will think that I am a lazy person who doesnt care for his work
I feel hopeless,I feel destructed I feel that staying at home is a scream that will help me I dont know how but this is how I feel now
I feel in this period that I am losing many things that I gained
But how do u think a person who is lonely for years and didnt have any fun for years can work and produce and have a motive
I dont know am I turning myself down, am I trying to destroy myself
I feel I am fighting wth no result
I always used to tell myself be patient,be patient, everything will be better but nothing changes
