Hi AP
Im back. Ive returned and I feel your arms surround me to welcome me home. I see our friend LONLINESS is here. Ya I'm alone, no one with me, but your AP I can always count on you to make me feel safe. Again I ran into ANXIETY of course I knew he'd be waiting around for me. I can't hide from him, he's everywhere I set my eyes on. He is so near I can feel him. AP you know how I get. I get hot, I tremble, I sweat. He follows me wherever. AP I keep telling myself to calm down, but i can't. AP people say you are trouble because you always invite ALONE but AP they dont understand. AlONE has been my friend for over 30 years. He keeps me safe from anxiety, who waits for me like a lion ready to pounce on his prey. And AP your my friend too. You've heard me speak out all my feelings and thoughts I'd never tell anyone, but AP you also know that I want AlONE to leave. You being a friend too know that AlONE is not good for me. AP you know I've only known you for a year but I know you understand me and know how I function, you know my thoughts and feelings, you've seen it all. I know I can always feel safe with you. Thanx AP for being here with me. You saw what I was writing earlier. Sometimes its hard for me to get my thoughts out because you know how hard I am on myself. The thoughts got to come out perfect. I don't like the way I feel, but what can I do. DEPRESSION slaps me on the right cheek. I turn to my left to avoid another slap, but than Im slapped on the left cheek by ANXIETY. What can I do but only look down to avoid the pain.
