So, I had my first real interview today. Not my first real interview since I quit my job, although technically it is, but my first real interview EVER. For my first job, my friend was already working there and I ran over when she said they needed somebody else and the manager had a little chat with me. For my work-study job, no interview was required. For my after college job, I prepared and he asked about 4 questions. For this job...first of all I couldn't even remember what I had applied for and I was already worried about that. Did I even want this job or was this one of those jobs I forced myself to apply to?

I got there and met with the HR lady and though "This isn't so bad." Then I admitted I had no idea what the job was. She read me the job description and there's phone work (which I don't believe I can do), but it didn't sound that bad. Then she said, ' You'll be meeting with the hiring manager in a little while."

Say what?! I wasn't aware this was a two-part interview. The HR lady was very nice and said she noticed I was quiet and that this wouldn't fly with the other lady. She told me to ask questions and explained why I just left my job without securing another one just like I explained to her (I do not tell the real reason why I left my job as I think that wouldn't put me in a good light).

The lady was scary and I gave up answers that ended up sounding like Miss South Carolina 2007. Even questions that I could normally give intelligent sounding answers to. It was horrible. I should have never left my job and just kept putting up with that dumbass.

I also had horrible insomnia last night. I was exhausted, but couldn't sleep for more than a couple hours at a time. I tried to nap when I came home, but couldn't fall asleep then either.

Now I'm drowning my sorrows with crostini and wine. But, I ran spellcheck, so this should be totally legible. Hopefully.