I've almost overcome my SA but i feel scared and I don't know why. On Wednesday I have to go to the drivers registration office, I've been there twice before, its an SA sufferers worst nightmare, it didn't really go well but I survived and I took a lot of positives out of it.
The legal driving age in south africa is 18 and I'm almost 21, so I'm a bit behind. I put off driving for so long because my anxiety was too high but now I feel I could handle it. I feel enthusiastic but afraid. Its hard to believe its really happening. I find it hard to believe my SA is completely gone, I fear maybe it isn't and I might put myself in a situation I wouldn't be able to handle.
Yesterday I went to get an eye test done. I was really scared about it but when I got there I wasn't anxious at all. I was scared that it would be too much for me too handle.
I now realize that even though I've reduced my anxiety dramatically I still think of things the same way as when my anxiety was at its worst point. My perspective has to change, I've been shy my entire life and have had SA for 6years, its become a big part of my identity and I find it hard to accept that I"m a confident and socially capable person.
